Wandering Mind

For the past few days I've noticed that my mind seems to be wandering more than previously.  I'm somewhat entertained by what my mind wanders to.  Sometimes I want to laugh out loud at myself because what pops into my mind is so incredibly random. 

I manage to repeat "May I be free from suffering; may I be at peace." a very few times, and then I start wondering how I could get my friend to study the book, "Non-violent Communication" with me. And then I think about some ideas I have for a new vegetable soup and a new lentil soup.  I've been eating out more than I should because I haven't cooked anything.  And so forth.

Then I catch myself and return to repeating the affirmation.  When my mind wanders again I count my breath to ten and start again.  I get through about three of those repetitions and think about what I'm going to have for breakfast because I'm starting to get hungry.

Finally I remember my purpose in sitting and ask God for instructions.  That feels really good and I'm able to sit in God's light for a few seconds.  Then I remember that so far I've gotten no instructions because my mind wanders and I think about that for awhile. 

Then I look at the clock to see how much time is left of the 20 minutes.  Usually there's somewhere between three and five minutes.  So then I go back to sitting in God's light with a sense of urgency because my time is almost up.  And then it is up.